Saturday, July 19, 2008
" fuck you ; 8:53 PM "
what? so i'm not good enough.
GOD just tell me that to my face already.
stop stringing me along, stop confusing me.
stop thinking lowly of me- what? do i look like a damn rodent to you?
what, just cos i am who i am. j
just because i happen to have the skin i have, the hair i have, the eyes i have.
just because i don't look like you.
just because i don't look like her.
stop pushing words around.
stop acting so damn nonchalant all the time,
stop making me feel so lowly.
stop saying all these things about yourself to elevate whatever.
stop enraging me.
stop instilling this fury in me,
i don't deserve it.
not even close.
i don't see a problem in being who i am.
and if you can't appreciate it then, fuck you.
who cares.
i did, but now i don't WANT to.
i don't want to care anymore.
i'm not her, i never WILL BE HER.
i never will be close.
i wont.
so there, wallow in your ecstasy.
i don't have the family you have.
i don't have the same people you have around you.
i don't.
and sometimes that makes me want to cry.
but i really don't give a fuck anymore.
i don't want to give a fuck.
do you know how sick i am ?
i keep putting myself on the line.
and you don't even know.
so i'm not going to try and do this "right".
if you want to, you can talk to me.
if you don't, then don't.
don't expect me to make the first move here.
i'm sick of doing things that make me look stupid.
cos i'm smarter than this.
i'm smart enough to know what i deserve.
and yeah, you feel you're out of my league.
i'm sure you feel superior.
go dance around in it.
go enjoy it.
go twirl about in your superiority of a multi-national ethnicity.
whereas i'm just LOWLY you see.
just a person you step on.
just a person who blends in the background.
GOD just tell me that to my face already.
stop stringing me along, stop confusing me.
stop thinking lowly of me- what? do i look like a damn rodent to you?
what, just cos i am who i am. j
just because i happen to have the skin i have, the hair i have, the eyes i have.
just because i don't look like you.
just because i don't look like her.
stop pushing words around.
stop acting so damn nonchalant all the time,
stop making me feel so lowly.
stop saying all these things about yourself to elevate whatever.
stop enraging me.
stop instilling this fury in me,
i don't deserve it.
not even close.
i don't see a problem in being who i am.
and if you can't appreciate it then, fuck you.
who cares.
i did, but now i don't WANT to.
i don't want to care anymore.
i'm not her, i never WILL BE HER.
i never will be close.
i wont.
so there, wallow in your ecstasy.
i don't have the family you have.
i don't have the same people you have around you.
i don't.
and sometimes that makes me want to cry.
but i really don't give a fuck anymore.
i don't want to give a fuck.
do you know how sick i am ?
i keep putting myself on the line.
and you don't even know.
so i'm not going to try and do this "right".
if you want to, you can talk to me.
if you don't, then don't.
don't expect me to make the first move here.
i'm sick of doing things that make me look stupid.
cos i'm smarter than this.
i'm smart enough to know what i deserve.
and yeah, you feel you're out of my league.
i'm sure you feel superior.
go dance around in it.
go enjoy it.
go twirl about in your superiority of a multi-national ethnicity.
whereas i'm just LOWLY you see.
just a person you step on.
just a person who blends in the background.