Monday, April 21, 2008
" jibber ; 9:44 PM "
i feel quite fine now, to be honest. I do feel slightly bad about things i've said or done, but it's not much damage. for now, whatever repercussions i get for my midyears, i'm quite prepared. damage isn't excessive, but it could be less, i guess. anyway, for now, this will do. but the whipping back into place will start soon enough, i hope. i don't feel apologetic for anything, i just feel bad about it.
more so, i'm starting to see things in a slightly patchy light. really more of my own cynicism - i'm trying hard to push all that jargon out of my head. but then somehow, it's all so boring without sticking in a catty comment about someone during the day's mundane events.
i'll be taking a break from writing here for a while. not because of the exams or anything, but more so that things fall back into order. i feel that if i keep writing about the things that i'm not satisfied with, i'm recording my waylays. so, my writing shall be reserved for the more memorable moments.
for the next month, i can predict, it's not going to be a very smooth one. so i'm buckling my seatbelt and i'm taking it head-on (no matter how much i really just want to run away and jump straight into the holidays.)
i think i'm being brave about all of this in some manner, i'll take what comes my way for the time-being. but that doesn't mean it's a lost course. things are turning around, for what it's worth.
i can sort of feel it. it's faint, but i can.