Friday, January 04, 2008
" i've been away ; 8:29 PM "
if i talk about emotional rollercoasters right now, i'd never stop. and on some level, i want to make myself stop dwelling over things that are supposed to be in the fucking past. i don't know at what point i got fed up with myself, but i'm pretty sure that i still am - and will continue to be that way until i get to the bottom of all of this.
*I SHALL SHAKE MYSELF UNTIL MY PESSIMIST ATTITUDE FLIES OUT OF THE WINDOW.
blogspot is not motivational, what a way to get boring.
things have been better, way better than before and for a good period of time i have been smiling. this isn't to say that i love all my agitators, this is just to say that i have forgotten them.
i have forgotten everything bad, everything stupid, everything pressurizing. and if i stand up and puke on my shoes - so be it. i'm pretty sure the smell will knock me out anyway.
i have forgotten you, you and you. i have forgotten my defeatist attitude, i have forgotten the little furrow that was etched so deep onto my forehead.
i have remembered to freaking smile - i have remembered to laugh. and i have remembered all my favourite aromas and places. and most importantly, i have remembered all my favourite people.
i don't see the point in being around you anymore.
the only way you existed in my life was to make me feel insecure and unworthy of myself and i'm GLAD i've told you off, i'm glad i've told you exactly how i feel and i'm glad you've been wiped off the surface of the earth. i'm so glad i told you in person exactly what an ignoramus you are. i'm glad we no longer speak because i have nothing to say to you. that MSN conversation was the last we ever had and it's been three weeks since we've spoken. let's keep it that way.
but then again there have been fantastic people around me -
and for their support, i so cant thank them enough! :) i love you guys.
john mayer has nice tattoos.
my braces hurt like hell.
kthxbye.
*I SHALL SHAKE MYSELF UNTIL MY PESSIMIST ATTITUDE FLIES OUT OF THE WINDOW.
blogspot is not motivational, what a way to get boring.
things have been better, way better than before and for a good period of time i have been smiling. this isn't to say that i love all my agitators, this is just to say that i have forgotten them.
i have forgotten everything bad, everything stupid, everything pressurizing. and if i stand up and puke on my shoes - so be it. i'm pretty sure the smell will knock me out anyway.
i have forgotten you, you and you. i have forgotten my defeatist attitude, i have forgotten the little furrow that was etched so deep onto my forehead.
i have remembered to freaking smile - i have remembered to laugh. and i have remembered all my favourite aromas and places. and most importantly, i have remembered all my favourite people.
i don't see the point in being around you anymore.
the only way you existed in my life was to make me feel insecure and unworthy of myself and i'm GLAD i've told you off, i'm glad i've told you exactly how i feel and i'm glad you've been wiped off the surface of the earth. i'm so glad i told you in person exactly what an ignoramus you are. i'm glad we no longer speak because i have nothing to say to you. that MSN conversation was the last we ever had and it's been three weeks since we've spoken. let's keep it that way.
but then again there have been fantastic people around me -
and for their support, i so cant thank them enough! :) i love you guys.
john mayer has nice tattoos.
my braces hurt like hell.
kthxbye.