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Sunday, November 11, 2007
" credit ; 11:32 AM "

i feel, inane.

inane and yet all these flourishing thoughts pour right through me. i don't know if should jump for joy or feel like i've dropped dead into a random pit-hole.

but somehow, in some warped manner, i feel totally at peace and totally in control.

i've learnt something in the past few days, the words i use, the condescending manner in which people talk, effects. it's all this blundering cycle.

people say, i'm strategically having the best years of my life, with the people i'm spending time with. yet i say, i'm missing out on the best years of my life with the people i want to spend time with. i don't know exactly how to put my frustration in words, but i guess it's true when they say you can only live for yourself.

there isn't going to be a shoulder there, 24/7. sometimes, that shoulder voluntarily backs out.

but so what? i don't need this explanation process anymore, because my inevitable connector is about a few miles away and sits there, with the words i would have typed out. i don't need this frustration i'm feeling, because one day, it'll fall into place.

i've given up trying to find whatever i was looking for, so now i'm just going to sit back and see where this takes me.

so i've been sitting here, waiting for something to happen. i'll let you know when it does.

chi-moh :D



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