i cant specifically describe what i'm feeling right now. most probably a tinge of, well, what the heck is happening?

this is really disturbing, like for some point of time i was telling myself that there were support systems in people, that there was some sort of reliability. no hypocrisy here, i never said i was the ideal standby. but i now hold a great sense of understanding to where this is going. i don't know where the destination is, but i know i'm heading there. okay enough of this. i said i couldn't specifically describe this and i cant. i cant explain it out in words. all i know is, i'm feeling this overwhelming sense of - something. and i'm experiencing it with the greatest optimism possible.

results have all been given out - ah. but i can't truly start enjoying this freedom until next week. i'm not the kind who thrives well with pressure. i know i wont enjoy a single bite of my durian puffs until i'm at peace with all my results, which i'm not at the moment. but whatever. if i were any more annoyed, i'd stand on my dining table and yell the sanity of which, i am trying to compose.

durian puffs, eternal euphoria? oh, i think not.

bye world, i'll be back soon. and till then, i shall be living the gruesome world of the triple beehives.