i cannot believe that there was a point of time where i was actually sick of the TLC song, turntable. because now, i'm in love with it all over again. yes, all over again.

YES ! my wife and kids is back on starworld [: i love that show. and today's episode was particularly sweet, if you watched. junior goes to hawaii with his family and falls in love with this girl, who happens to be overweight. and when the fireworks go off in the beach, he falls asleep after, making the girl carry him all the way back ! it's so funny, because it's always the guy (chauvinist as it may sound) carrying the girl back. so this was a fresh change, it was heartbreakingly cute yet absurd at the same time.

i digress;

there are so many things/thoughts running through my head and i cant sieve things out, which is really pathetic. sometimes i don't even know what i'm upset about - if that makes sense. but i think now, i do know what it is. which makes it a whole lot better, because i get to mend these small parts which are going particularly splayed. maybe what meeta said was right, about this not being the time. i guess things always happen at certain time sets and maybe i need to wait. patience, maya. i need to wait for the right time for things to settle in, so i won't be so upset over trivial matters.

also, it's time to spend more time with the family. i think i've been a bit negligent and i don't want to end up regretting it all. my source of strength has always been from them, so i don't see why it has to change just because i'm in secondary school and maybe more hormonal. (: i love them and it's time i showed that.

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also,
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY CHRISTINA[:

i can tell, this holiday is going to be an eventful one.