Saturday, December 31, 2005
" All the resolutions ; 11:08 PM "
It's New Year's Eve, 11.10 pm.
All the resolutions get settled out, all the eating, drink and being happy takes place. A sense of family and friends kick in. But truthfully, and brutally, this year didn't bring much to the table. Having the tsunami take place during late december 2004, it sort of ruined the whole of 2005, didn't it? Well, the first few months of this year would have been brutal for the tsunami victims, but props to them for pulling through. Compared to the tsunami victims, our problems may be trivial and small. But however small or big, we're going to step into 2006 whether we like it or not.
Honestly, for me, this year hasn't been a joy ride. First of all, being in primary six, the pressure kicked in for PSLE and for that we had to work our butts off. Well, the first few months were laid back and slow and I got into a routine like that, ending up to only disappoint myself. Mathematics was just a constant struggle for me and each time I tried harder and struggled, it seemed like I was sinking deeper and deeper into a pit. I've only got myself to blame for not doing terrificly well, but only average. There are obviously alot of things I would really love to go over. Like totally alot of embarassments. Typical. It's probably just part and parcel of being a kid. Embarassing moments and stuff that just rub you the wrong way.
We all undoubtedly go through alot of things in our lives. No body's life is fairly easy when you have to face daily struggles. There are surely alot of things I want to change about my self but sometimes I look at myself and wonder why I don't really pull through all these so called "changes" I want to make. Resolutions are something every body makes, don't they? And when I can't pull through it makes me slip down into a depressing mode of self-hatred, and also a constant self-pity. That's probably something I'd like to change about myself, when I think about it right now. :)
Crap happens. It's shit that never ends, mind you.
There is a whole new year to await and to see what it holds in store for all of us. We just will never know until we live the moment. There'll be AWESOME things that I know will happen to us sooner or later. There'll never be a year with full of crap. There'll be a first time thing that might happen, or a great experience that only 2006 might hold. Who knows? I still remember the time I was sitting by myself last year just thinking of what 2005 would hold. I knew that I was holding too many expectations for it and I ended up finding that out only when not so great things happened to start off my year. March was a horrible month this year, for me, really. And if you notice, March is when I started this blog. I was really in desperate need to start writing or I seriously thought I'd faint of exasperation.
Things I'm looking forward to next year : OBVIOUSLY Secondary School, my writing course, the new television shows, meeting new people, waiting to see how long my hair will grow by next year this time and date and moment, whether I will lose or gain weight...well, ALOT of things if I'm totally honest. Oh yes...and let us not forget the possibility of getting a...wel, I don't want to jinx it, so I'm not going to mention it. But I think you guys know what I'm talking about? *woof woof*?? :D
I'm really looking forward to meeting my primary school friends in about a year or two, or just months to see if they have changed too.
xoxox
All the resolutions get settled out, all the eating, drink and being happy takes place. A sense of family and friends kick in. But truthfully, and brutally, this year didn't bring much to the table. Having the tsunami take place during late december 2004, it sort of ruined the whole of 2005, didn't it? Well, the first few months of this year would have been brutal for the tsunami victims, but props to them for pulling through. Compared to the tsunami victims, our problems may be trivial and small. But however small or big, we're going to step into 2006 whether we like it or not.
Honestly, for me, this year hasn't been a joy ride. First of all, being in primary six, the pressure kicked in for PSLE and for that we had to work our butts off. Well, the first few months were laid back and slow and I got into a routine like that, ending up to only disappoint myself. Mathematics was just a constant struggle for me and each time I tried harder and struggled, it seemed like I was sinking deeper and deeper into a pit. I've only got myself to blame for not doing terrificly well, but only average. There are obviously alot of things I would really love to go over. Like totally alot of embarassments. Typical. It's probably just part and parcel of being a kid. Embarassing moments and stuff that just rub you the wrong way.
We all undoubtedly go through alot of things in our lives. No body's life is fairly easy when you have to face daily struggles. There are surely alot of things I want to change about my self but sometimes I look at myself and wonder why I don't really pull through all these so called "changes" I want to make. Resolutions are something every body makes, don't they? And when I can't pull through it makes me slip down into a depressing mode of self-hatred, and also a constant self-pity. That's probably something I'd like to change about myself, when I think about it right now. :)
Crap happens. It's shit that never ends, mind you.
There is a whole new year to await and to see what it holds in store for all of us. We just will never know until we live the moment. There'll be AWESOME things that I know will happen to us sooner or later. There'll never be a year with full of crap. There'll be a first time thing that might happen, or a great experience that only 2006 might hold. Who knows? I still remember the time I was sitting by myself last year just thinking of what 2005 would hold. I knew that I was holding too many expectations for it and I ended up finding that out only when not so great things happened to start off my year. March was a horrible month this year, for me, really. And if you notice, March is when I started this blog. I was really in desperate need to start writing or I seriously thought I'd faint of exasperation.
Things I'm looking forward to next year : OBVIOUSLY Secondary School, my writing course, the new television shows, meeting new people, waiting to see how long my hair will grow by next year this time and date and moment, whether I will lose or gain weight...well, ALOT of things if I'm totally honest. Oh yes...and let us not forget the possibility of getting a...wel, I don't want to jinx it, so I'm not going to mention it. But I think you guys know what I'm talking about? *woof woof*?? :D
I'm really looking forward to meeting my primary school friends in about a year or two, or just months to see if they have changed too.
xoxox