Sunday, August 07, 2005
" Learning my dysfunctional family ; 8:12 PM "
I have the most dysfunctional family in the whole of Singapore and I am starting to get so pissed off with everyone. I wish, right, I could just turn into a tiger, so I could claw at everyone and make them get so scared and terrified of me that they would worship me at my feet! Hmm..they just suck most of the time because I just feel like an outsider most of the time, and that's typical. Let me explain: My sister, well, she's going to India soon and so I'm supposed to treat her well. But one thing I have to say, how is that going to be possible if she is always calling me names and shoving me away? Am I supposed to be like "Whoops!Sis doesn't want me around..but hey, what the heck..I'll hang around her anyway!" I mean, I have my pride okay? My brother, well, we don't fight. I have nothing bad to say about him. He's pretty nice. And also, I seem of him as more of a dad? He's like sixteen years older than me and so that's why it's much different between the two of us. But I hardly get to see him. And when I do, it's all so quiet. We just don't talk much. My mother is very difficult to talk to. She's built this fortress around her which I can't get to at all. If I try and talk to her , she will also not take the effort to listen which hurts me. But, I AM supposed to be by her side when she has nothing better to do. And I have to listen to her because she has--apparently--alot to say. I listen anyway. But then, deep inside...I'm like..."yeah...uhuh, what about me?" My father, hah, he used to be the only one I could talk to. But now, he's so caught up with some other things and he hardly notices me. My mother complains that I don't help around which is total crap and then I get this occassional lecture. And then, he's like telling me that I'm troubling my mother. I tell you, this is all so much BS that I just want to scream at anyone I see at this precise moment.
Mmm...the warm breeze isn't even enough to comfort me now. I feel like crying and crying and crying because I have heard that it relieves stress. That's great news. I wanna relieve stress. Relieve stress. Relieve all BS!!!
Mmm...the warm breeze isn't even enough to comfort me now. I feel like crying and crying and crying because I have heard that it relieves stress. That's great news. I wanna relieve stress. Relieve stress. Relieve all BS!!!
Missy Higgins [Scar]
He left a card, a bar of soap and a scrubbing brush next to a note which said
"use these down to your bones"
And before I knew that I had shiny skin, it felt easy being clean like him
and I thought
"this one knows better than I do"
A triangle trying to squeeze into a circle
He tried to cut me so I'd fit
[Chorus]
And doesn't that sound familiar?
Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far;
Could you leave me with a scar?
So the next one came with a bag of treats;
She smelt like sugar and spoke like the sea
And she told me, don't trust them, trust me
Then she pulled at my stitches one by one
Looking at my insides clicking her tongue and then she said
"this will all have to come undone"
A triangle trying to fit into a circle
She tried to cut me so I'd fit
[Chorus]
I think I realized just in time, although my old self was so hard to find
You bathe me in your finest wine, but I won't give you mine
'Cos I'm a little bit tired of feeling like I'll be the bad fruit that nobody buys
Tell me, did you think that we'd all dream the same?
[Chorus]
Ahh, I love this song.
It gives somesort of voice to people.
And it doesn't
demean.
decrease.
desize.
anyone.
Oh, yeah, except for fucking bitches and booties.
Jomkwan
Selynna
Hidhir
Jita
Ziana
Ariel
Nasri
Elonah
Melody
Nadiah
He left a card, a bar of soap and a scrubbing brush next to a note which said
"use these down to your bones"
And before I knew that I had shiny skin, it felt easy being clean like him
and I thought
"this one knows better than I do"
A triangle trying to squeeze into a circle
He tried to cut me so I'd fit
[Chorus]
And doesn't that sound familiar?
Doesn't that hit too close to home?
Doesn't that make you shiver; the way things could have gone?
And doesn't it feel peculiar when everyone wants a little more?
And so that I do remember to never go that far;
Could you leave me with a scar?
So the next one came with a bag of treats;
She smelt like sugar and spoke like the sea
And she told me, don't trust them, trust me
Then she pulled at my stitches one by one
Looking at my insides clicking her tongue and then she said
"this will all have to come undone"
A triangle trying to fit into a circle
She tried to cut me so I'd fit
[Chorus]
I think I realized just in time, although my old self was so hard to find
You bathe me in your finest wine, but I won't give you mine
'Cos I'm a little bit tired of feeling like I'll be the bad fruit that nobody buys
Tell me, did you think that we'd all dream the same?
[Chorus]
Ahh, I love this song.
It gives somesort of voice to people.
And it doesn't
demean.
decrease.
desize.
anyone.
Oh, yeah, except for fucking bitches and booties.
Tomorrow my school is celebrating national day.
It all sounds so exciting you know!
I feel my skin crawling up and down. And nonono!
I'm not excited because of the stupid polar cakes..
I'm excited because the upper primary get to witness OPERA IDOL!!!
Which is taking place tomorrow and I'm so darn excited.
The contestants are:It all sounds so exciting you know!
I feel my skin crawling up and down. And nonono!
I'm not excited because of the stupid polar cakes..
I'm excited because the upper primary get to witness OPERA IDOL!!!
Which is taking place tomorrow and I'm so darn excited.
Jomkwan
Selynna
Hidhir
Jita
Ziana
Ariel
Nasri
Elonah
Melody
Nadiah
I think that's about it if I'm not mistaken?? Yeah, gooo everyone! Wish you guys all the best. You guys are about to make Opera Estate legend!