Thursday, July 21, 2005
" Learning the rotting in hell ; 7:40 PM "
Why is that I get distracted easily?
You know, I hear someone laughing and I turn back and laugh too and then if someone's stuff falls down I pick it up or laugh..or whatever. It's sickening really. I'm trying to control myself. I want to be like..you know, "studious" and hard-working and I want to go to a good school. I just don't know if I can do that anymore. 75 days and counting. How if I don't make it? Seriously, this is all I think, breathe and eat about nowadays. I can't sleep and I keep having nightmares about my 1.6. Why is this world so unfair? Sometimes, I just wish that the world would ground to a halt and it would wait for me to catch up with it . It never does. It never will.
I don't know why I bother in the first place.
I now know what it feels like to see two sides of one person. When you're around the person..you're her friend. You know, friend and buddy and you chat chat chat. You listen to their points of views and etc and you know them.
But when you see them around teachers and other friends..you don't know them anymore. Their not that person. Their a stranger.
I don't understand why they have to change. Especially around teachers. For me, I brush off Mrs. Barcelona's comments like it's dandruff or something. She sucks, big time and she always will. But some people, they hate her yet they suck up to her like she's a goddess all of a sudden. It's like betrayal. It's like them become best friends with your enemy.
That's exactly how I feel.
Today, I had my science test paper. It was alright, I think. I didn't have much difficulties. But, there's still no telling.
I really am starting to hate ______. She really sucks now. She acts cute and it's super lame. I don't know why I ______ her. I'm probably paying for my sins.
*Good for Selynna*
I feel happy for her.
She's with who..Adil now?
Yeah, so that's good. Moving on is a good thing.
Just keep moving moving moving.
Don't stop until you know you need to and don't give up until you've hit the treasure..
And Huishan, I'm not afraid to say that I know you now.
If you want to backstab me go ahead.
If you want to WHISPER then WHISPER.
I don't know how your whispering turned into talking and allowed me to hear your bitchiness. :) Anyway, thanks for letting me know how badly you hate me. I appreciate it.
:D
P/S: You've started:
Talking
Acting
Crying
Swearing
like that Lip Loon.
I've nothing against you.
But I think you have so much against me.
Haiyaaaah..
I don't want to school anymore.
Why is life so much of hell?
:'(
You know, I hear someone laughing and I turn back and laugh too and then if someone's stuff falls down I pick it up or laugh..or whatever. It's sickening really. I'm trying to control myself. I want to be like..you know, "studious" and hard-working and I want to go to a good school. I just don't know if I can do that anymore. 75 days and counting. How if I don't make it? Seriously, this is all I think, breathe and eat about nowadays. I can't sleep and I keep having nightmares about my 1.6. Why is this world so unfair? Sometimes, I just wish that the world would ground to a halt and it would wait for me to catch up with it . It never does. It never will.
I don't know why I bother in the first place.
I now know what it feels like to see two sides of one person. When you're around the person..you're her friend. You know, friend and buddy and you chat chat chat. You listen to their points of views and etc and you know them.
But when you see them around teachers and other friends..you don't know them anymore. Their not that person. Their a stranger.
I don't understand why they have to change. Especially around teachers. For me, I brush off Mrs. Barcelona's comments like it's dandruff or something. She sucks, big time and she always will. But some people, they hate her yet they suck up to her like she's a goddess all of a sudden. It's like betrayal. It's like them become best friends with your enemy.
That's exactly how I feel.
Today, I had my science test paper. It was alright, I think. I didn't have much difficulties. But, there's still no telling.
I really am starting to hate ______. She really sucks now. She acts cute and it's super lame. I don't know why I ______ her. I'm probably paying for my sins.
*Good for Selynna*
I feel happy for her.
She's with who..Adil now?
Yeah, so that's good. Moving on is a good thing.
Just keep moving moving moving.
Don't stop until you know you need to and don't give up until you've hit the treasure..
And Huishan, I'm not afraid to say that I know you now.
If you want to backstab me go ahead.
If you want to WHISPER then WHISPER.
I don't know how your whispering turned into talking and allowed me to hear your bitchiness. :) Anyway, thanks for letting me know how badly you hate me. I appreciate it.
:D
P/S: You've started:
Talking
Acting
Crying
Swearing
like that Lip Loon.
I've nothing against you.
But I think you have so much against me.
Haiyaaaah..
I don't want to school anymore.
Why is life so much of hell?
:'(