Heya. Today was..okay I guess. Not bad, but bad at the same time. Fuck u _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ !!!! Ugh you know, I don't know why it's so difficult for me to trust you after all that I see with my own two eyes. The way you _ _ _ _ _ with _ _ _ _ _ is so darn fucking rude. You know my feelings for him and I know you are damn nice to me whenever needed. And the fact that you are in my class and that we hang about some times it's like gone down the DRAIN. For all the times that you flutter and that you flap and that you just damnit SMILE I get agitated. It's stupid, all this time, I trusted you in that "particular category". Not saying that I don't trust you at ALL now. I still manage to talk to you during class. But I don't want to. Sometimes, I feel like I'm forcing myself to do that and now, I'm actually admiting it to you, so accept it please, because I am sooo not gonna apologize or clear the mist and fog for you anymore. I'm tired of being the window-wiper you know? I mean, clean your DOUBTS for a change when you have the time, and when you are NOT flirting.

Let's just forget that bitch because I am in tears right now and I cant control them..

Today, I went to 'gracious pets' the pet store just across school to check out the hamsters and to learn some stuff about them. I learnt about their habitats and stuff, and I want this "winterwhite" hammie. So cute! I'm in love with it's cuteness.
NAMES:
Jewel
Snowball
Caramel
Chocolate
Gem
Vanilla
pudding
rocksie
shana
sheila

I can't think when I'm damnit CRYING.

Well, my "secret plan" was actually to not tell my parents and then get a hamster. But I'd feel just toooooooo.....urm....GUILTY lah. :'( But I'm honest, so that's great and I'm kinda proud of myself for telling them! :)

Well, I'll post lata!