Monday, March 28, 2005
" Learning Opposites ; 11:14 PM "
I hate thinking that I have to give it up on you, you know? I know,you are never ever going to read my blog in your life. You don't even know I have one. I want to ask you, or rather ask myself, why things are unfair. Sometimes when I think about stuff, it's like yeah, I'm too young all that shit. But, hey, I understand and that matters. If you understand, no matter what age, it is still understanding. And I'm sorry, you don't know all this about me. If you do, well, it never seems like you acknowledge it. Everytime, like I said, I look at you and when I do actually catch your gaze, it's like flutters galore. When I know who exactly you like, I want to cry. And I have. But, look, the whole of term one has been about you, even though you are totally clueless about it. I know most of the things that happen around me, of course. Well, last week too. I thought maybe I'll have one last chance. Maybe, something out of nothing. But yeah, my luck, huh? Nothing. Nope. Nothing. Hey, look, we don't click, maybe. We are so different. But I believe whatever it is, everyone has a spark. I used to hope that maybe you'd know my spark, my abilities to make people smile sometimes, or maybe in a way, I have tried to make you smile. I know, that girl makes you smile. It's ok. Really. I'm on full-study-mode now. I promise. But yeah, I'll think about all this occasionally.