Tuesday, March 22, 2005
" Learning my friends ; 3:28 PM "
Yeah, sorry about the long time no-posts thing. Okay, well not such a looong time or anything. Just that usually I might post like three times a day and then feel all drained. But today, nah. I'm in no mood to type. But I want to type and I so need to type to remember this day (the second day of term 2) and remember how darn crappy it was.
Now, I'm all safe and sound at home. No shit at school right now. But, hoo-boy today school was just..like it always is, but let's say, more horrible.
This morning something happened. And then I was a bit upset because it was like I couldn't help. But then, stupid Big-Baby sang a stupid song about me and about my darn life. I was like "Shut the crap up," But I soo couldn't. Then we had to go for assembly. I felt like shit already, all stomped on. Okay, then I tried forgetting about Big-Baby. I kept on looking down at my arms for some reason. I've mentioned right, I have this new watch. Just a week ago, it was all glamo-glamo and I thought it looked great on me. Today when I looked at my arms, they seemed..digusting! I know, it's funny to think that way. But, that's what I thought. It's gross! I'm darn dark, obviously. And I feel so pissed off about it. Then I stared at my watch and I was wondering, how could I ever think that such a nice watch could look good on a grossomatic hand. My hands are darn fat and then the watch looks so tiny! :'(
Then after Music class (first period) second period was Math!! Argh. Great. Then we had to change places. I'm right SMACK on the wall, ok ok, beside the wall with Danial in front of me, Mei Qi beside me and Sebastian behind me. I have never talked to these people and I felt all weird. I was practically asleep with Mdm. Rosliza blabbling LOADS. Ok, I know, I sound mean. But no, usually she doesn't talk so much. But today, woah, alot. And then, she kept on glancing at me. More like glaring. Then I obviously tolerated. First, I felt so insecure like thirty something other people looking at me most of the time. Oh thanks thanks, I'm seperated from big-baby, aka, boob-obsessed? Ugh. But unfortunately, she's not that far from me or anything. She's just two tables away from me!! Aw, whatever.
Then okay, when I went back to my english class to put my bag on my chair, Ms Wang wanted to talk to me. Okaayyy, fine! Then she was like,"I heard from Mrs. Shahrin that you are having problems with those girls??" I nodded. "Look here, nothing to worry about. They are bullies. I know that Scrapey..<> is the bossy one around. Okay, just ignore them and you need not say sorry if you feel you're not in the wrong. It's understandable!" She said. Thanks. I mean, at least I was a bit lighter. But, I was still a bit hurt..because I'm not chosen to go for the school trip to PERTH. How sad is that?! I mean, I'm so lame as it is. Pathetically lame. And I don't even get to go to Perth.
Oh yeah, did I tell you? Yesterday in Eng class we changed places too. And I'm sitting with Barry and Jerome!! Aaaaaaaah.
Now, I'm all safe and sound at home. No shit at school right now. But, hoo-boy today school was just..like it always is, but let's say, more horrible.
This morning something happened. And then I was a bit upset because it was like I couldn't help. But then, stupid Big-Baby sang a stupid song about me and about my darn life. I was like "Shut the crap up," But I soo couldn't. Then we had to go for assembly. I felt like shit already, all stomped on. Okay, then I tried forgetting about Big-Baby. I kept on looking down at my arms for some reason. I've mentioned right, I have this new watch. Just a week ago, it was all glamo-glamo and I thought it looked great on me. Today when I looked at my arms, they seemed..digusting! I know, it's funny to think that way. But, that's what I thought. It's gross! I'm darn dark, obviously. And I feel so pissed off about it. Then I stared at my watch and I was wondering, how could I ever think that such a nice watch could look good on a grossomatic hand. My hands are darn fat and then the watch looks so tiny! :'(
Then after Music class (first period) second period was Math!! Argh. Great. Then we had to change places. I'm right SMACK on the wall, ok ok, beside the wall with Danial in front of me, Mei Qi beside me and Sebastian behind me. I have never talked to these people and I felt all weird. I was practically asleep with Mdm. Rosliza blabbling LOADS. Ok, I know, I sound mean. But no, usually she doesn't talk so much. But today, woah, alot. And then, she kept on glancing at me. More like glaring. Then I obviously tolerated. First, I felt so insecure like thirty something other people looking at me most of the time. Oh thanks thanks, I'm seperated from big-baby, aka, boob-obsessed? Ugh. But unfortunately, she's not that far from me or anything. She's just two tables away from me!! Aw, whatever.
Then okay, when I went back to my english class to put my bag on my chair, Ms Wang wanted to talk to me. Okaayyy, fine! Then she was like,"I heard from Mrs. Shahrin that you are having problems with those girls??" I nodded. "Look here, nothing to worry about. They are bullies. I know that Scrapey..<
Oh yeah, did I tell you? Yesterday in Eng class we changed places too. And I'm sitting with Barry and Jerome!! Aaaaaaaah.